I think I've mentioned this before of how when I played a sport in my teen years, I almost seemed to lose sense of where I was or even a sense of existing... I was a very shallow teenager, I just did not have the strengthened character that I obtained in my twenties. I was what they call "trying to much" in my younger years, trying too much to be accepted & ultimately just looking like a fraud. I was never sure of myself at a lot of times because I believed things should be straight-forward & didn't get that there were nuances, envies & hatreds hidden in people. So, while I believed I could've been better at every sport I played... some people just didn't want me to succeed... It is only in recent times that I've calmed down & realised that I could've been a much better athlete if I just relaxed & stuck to what I knew. And of course, "If I knew back then what I know now, I would've become a professional athlete." - Mth...